General18

I see, even though I haven't played TruckersMP in a VERY long time, people still took time to wish me 'Happy Birthday' back in February 2025. Thank you, to everyone who did so  And to those who came in here or thought about me in some way or another, or knew I had been offline for a long time: Thank you for stopping by 

I today/yesterday played TruckersMP for the first time in a VERY long time.
It was wonderful to drive around again with a few friends after so long, and seeing some of the new things that has happened to the game since last time I played on here, including the reworked roads and new cities in Denmark (Scandinavia DLC). I'm still contemplating buying the DLC for northern Norway/Sweden and Finland.

After not having driven for so long, I couldn't return without also taking a look in Duisburg and Calais, and of course the CD road 

I must say, the rest area/fuel station that has been made on the CD road close to Calais, is very well made. Well done TruckersMP Add-On Team  (Maybe it has been there for a long time, but I can't remember it looking like it does now)

Why have I been gone for so long? 

I don't know to be precise.
I even completely stopped streaming and still, to this day, I haven't started the stream up again, since June 10th 2023 (I streamed a total of 4 times in the first half of 2023).
 
A lot has happened in the past 2, almost 3 years since I left the TruckersMP Support team (January 24th 2023).
My mothers mom died in December 2023 and prior to that my sister and I had visited her when she were on a Hospital with dementia a little earlier (I don't remember exactly how long before). I remember I was very close to crying when we walked away from her (To get out to the car), and it was very hard to wave goodbye to her (I didn't want to cry in front of her, but I'm sure she could feel something on the inside), seeing her sit there looking like she always did, because I felt like I had let her down (My mothers mom), by not visiting her nearly enough. When we drove off, I broke down and also brought my sister to tears.

From the above I will remind you all: Enjoy your elders' company, before it's too late. Heck, enjoy everyone's company, because you never know when they're no longer there.


Have I been stressed at some point? I don't know, but every time some of my friends/past viewers mention that I haven't streamed for a long time, and is looking forward to my next stream and also asking when the next stream will be: I always feel like I've let my viewers/friends down since then (I haven't written a message or anything for them, and now that it's been so long, I don't know what to say or do). The only thing I can say when they ask me when the next stream will be is: I don't know  (I really enjoyed all the fun times we had together, on the ETS2 roads as well as in other games).

Perhaps I also got completely burned out with streaming/playing Euro Truck Simulator 2. Following that, I didn't know what else to stream, and basically crashed.

I hope with small steps that I can return to streaming and even just playing games regularly. Regarding streams: Most likely not as often, at least not in the beginning, + I'll have to make sure that I don't burn myself out again. 
So far, I've returned to playing some VR and now also some Euro Truck, both of which I hadn't played in a very long time, most likely because it seemed like an impossible task or something (I don't really know how to explain the feelings). Let's see how it goes from here 

Also, remember to take care of yourself by taking time off from work. I haven't been the best at doing so, but I'm going to try and change that with 2026 

Best wishes
General18 / Steffen

If you've been reading all of the above, thank you very much for taking your time  Some parts were very hard to write, but I felt like I needed to get it out 

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