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Hi, i'll be as quick as possible on this topic, it's sad topic, that's a warning.

 

Let's get right to the point; on monday 20.1.2020 my best gamer friend decided to do suicide, he died the following day at the hospital, 21 years old. And i'd like to discuss some of that...

 

I'd like to thank TMP Devs, especially the guys who were responsible for the release of the multiplayer, I met the guy 6 years ago when i was driving south of Edinbourgh, i stopped to take a phone call and while i was on the phone 3 guys went by me, texting in Slovenian, they were south bound too, so i followed them and started to chat with them, that's how it all began. Soon after we started to talk on skype a lot and play the hell a lot of ETS2, that went on for about 3 years, almost 4, then he kinda got bored of SCS games, in his opinion the games were not offering anything new since release, in a way i'd agree with him, but not completelly. After that he moved on to other games, but we still did a run or two every now and then. This past year things changed a lot, he almost stopped spending any time on computer and i knew he was kinda lost, we talked about it. But he never really said how bad he felt. Now he is gone and im left with memories of him, he was probably the person i've  spend the most time with during past 6 years, i'd do anything to bring him back but by now i kinda got used to the life cycle, the best thing is to just move on, now i've lost 3 persons who were very close to me in 2 years so, this whole thing is nothing new to me... All in all, Devs thank you for even releasing TMP, for constatly working on it, i'd like to thank to other staff members too, for doing their jobs, managing community, without you guys i'd never be a friend with this guy, this friendship was really nice one, not perfect, but it couldn't be better, so yea, thank you for that.

 

While im at it, guys and girls, suicide is an option, but if you are thinking about it, you really should talk about it, it should be the very last option, do everything you can to get better, to get out of the mindset, to see the good side of things too, not only the bad, I was thinking about doing it, when i was 13 years old, my dad died when i was 10 and by the time i was 13, i was completely lost, outsider in school, i didnt fit anywhere, i used to stay at home a week per month just to avoid people, to cry, nothing made sense to me, I stutter and kids at that age are pretty good bullies, so combine that and losing my dad and you've got a boy who just wants out. But i chose to fight, i decided that no matter how hard it will get i will never quit just because i want to, i didnt want to do that to people who were close to me, they were worth living for to me so here i am 11 years after that. I had ups and downs after that, it's life, it cant be all nice, in order for us to learn we have to go thru some difficult times. The most important thing i learned is that giving up is not worth it, people come people go and materialistic stuff is important but not more than a life.

 

That's it, i'm done, go spend time with people that mean something to you, go make memories, the only thing that's left at the end.

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Sorry to hear about your loss bud. It is indeed sad to lose someone to suicide. Keep strong and keep pushing forward. Lots of love coming your way. ❤️

 

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Sorry to hear that and all of my condolences. Stay strong dure ans good luck for the future, don't forget who you are ❤️. We ( the players ) are always here if you need to talk! Don't hesitate if you need to talk and We're all behind you to support you ? Sorry but I don't have the "appropriate" words for this situation even if I understand it and I just hope that what I'm saying will kinda help you to feel more strong and better.

 

Don't forget that you didn't have lose him forever because if you believe in him, he will be in your heart and that's him who will help you to pass difficulties on the life.

 

I will share you a true story about me and someone who is died and so. The goal of why I will share it to y'all is to avoid all dark decisions like decisions.

 

It's brief because it will take two hours to write if I should completely tell it.

It was my first love, her name is Aurélie. We loved our relationship and so, 2 years after the first kiss, we had a disagreement and we had decided to take our distance but the love between her and me was so intense that 1 week later, we had decided to do a step back to talk together and so it was planned to go in a restaurant that loved. Well I rejoin her in the Bus and ready to go, we were arrived at bus stop so we have left the bus and.. I was two laps forward her and we were going on the pedestrian pathway that she got a call, I continue to walk and she was continuing but slowly and didn't look on her left side if a car come and so she got hit by a car... a few months after that, I was "away", I was thinking about to come at end with my life but fortunately I handled back myself and find some others way to help me like talk to a specialist/psychologist.

 

Don't hesitate to talk to a specialist/psychologist and also your family and your close friends! That will reposition you in the right way! The life can be not fair but don't forget that we have a lot of time to live our life and to live some great and beautiful moments. You must be strong and pass it whatever the situation. The life is so important and beautiful that to be spoiled/shot. 

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I'm so sorry to hear that, I've never had to go through things like this but I can't imagine how hard it can be. People think friends you meet "over the internet" don't mean much but you do really form a strong bond with them and it's clear that you really loved having them as a friend. I wish that you keep strong and keep a strong and positive mindset even though it can be difficult in times like this ❤️

 

If you ever wish to talk, my DMs are always open so don't hesitate to contact me ❤️ 

Kind regards,

Ali.

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I'm really sorry to learn about your friend and what he had driven himself to. My condolences go to you and your friends.
I'm really happy for you that you were able to make a good friend from TruckersMP. This is exactly what it was made for. 

Suicide is an awful place to be in. To be at that point in life where you truly believe you are better off not in the world is one of the most horrible feelings anyone can encounter. There is too much stigma surrounding men and mental health and this is one of things that is being worked on but has so much more work to have done.

We're all here for you in TMP through the good, the bad and the ugly. I hope things for you get better soon. 

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I'm extremely sorry to hear about your loss.
From personal experiences,I can relate to how you may feel currently,so if you need anything feel free to message me on here or discord.

 

It's always great making friends on a online game. I have made quite a few from this mod and I've meet many.
I don't know what I'd do without them currently.

If you're coming to the event sunday it would be great to say hello to you in game,maybe grab a photo.

 

Again,take your time to gather your thoughts.

 

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This is very sad and I cannot even imagine. I am always here to chat with everyone and you can always contact me on the forums or on Discord.

 

Sorry for your loss. ❤️

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As mentioned by the other staff above, I am sorry for your loss. 
Creating such a strong bond is quite unusual, especially via a game- your friendship was indeed something special.
I am glad to hear that you can hold on to the memories you had with your friend.

My DMs are open as well if you'd like to talk- I am reachable on discord as well. Snorlax#0069

I hope that you can recover from your loss quickly. 

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Hey there buddy, I'm really sorry for your loss. 

 

I really know the feeling of losing someone to a suicide, I've lost someone very close to me due to this as well. It was a very hard and shocking experience, but I've managed to keep my head up. I found new friends and it really helped to just talk about it. 

 

So you should be really proud of yourself, unfortunately many people don't talk about situations like this. The community is always here to help, so is the staff team. 

 

My DMs are open if you'd like to talk. 

 

Stay safe man, we are here for you ❤?️

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Hello @antrax737,

 

Your message is so striking and I really want to answer you to show you my support for you.

 

I'm very sad for your friend, that's so tragic.. It must have been very hard to write this message and I want to thank you for having the courage to write us about this. As my mates said, my DM are always open if you need to talk about it.

 

Never give up ❤️

HérissonMan,

 

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Oh boy what a response, thank you all so much, i really didnt expct that.

 

@CJMAXiK Dude, what can i say, it's your decision, but if you are not 40 or 50, you still have pretty long life ahead of you and things are going to change, but things never change if you wait for them to change, work on it, fight it, ask for help if needed and do never give up. If my friend would come back somehow i'd probably hit him in the face really hard, two reasons, he never talked about it, whatever it was and he probably planned it for some time, absolutely ignoring everybody who loved him.

 

@Caernage I cant imagine what u went thru, to see it happen... ?

Yea i know, people can help, wont need that tho, i went thru it 3 times before and i will go again, aint no force in this world to stop me.

 

@Chris [PL] You know how it is, always easier to type about it than talk about it. The nature of the beast i guess...

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Such a sad story but a lovely tribute ❤️ Those who we are all close to never really leave us. They remain by our sides, in our hearts and minds, always. 

 

Whenever we all fall low, and everyone does at some point. We all should remember that someone out there cares. Someone will listen. There’s never such a thing that is not possible to be talked about. Small talk saves lives, never be ashamed to open up about your feelings. 

 

I wish you all the best going forward, @antrax737 ❤️

 

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Hey @antrax737,

We are glad that you're enjoying TruckersMP and we enjoy working on improving and adding new feature to our mod. I'm sorry for the lost you had and it's always sad to lose someone you care and enjoy playing with. I hope you'll continue to find new friends on our mods and that you'll enjoy playing it.

I wish you all the best ❤️ and thank you for sharing your story with us :) 
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That really touched me  :mellow: You seem to be a very strong person, keep doing like that! I'm so sorry for your loss and I can only agree to what JM already said - it's always sad to lose someone you care about. I recommend you to continue trucking on TMP and making new friends. If you want to take a ride, I'm always happy to join! 

 

All the best buddy,

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Thank you all, i really didnt expect so much responses,  amazing staff, really overwhelming, thank you. I kinda feel bad too be honest, if i'd pay that much attetion to my friend he maybe would be still alive, not just me, his friends and family too... but that's what everybody says at the end, then people say, "you didnt know, you couldnt do much about it" which in a way is true, but still there is that "what if?", in life there are questions to which we never get an answers too, move on or overthink it.

 

Thank you all again, cya tomorrow on the ATS convoy.

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I can't express how sorry I am for you, I know what losing a person that close to you does and that it's perfectly fine to feel the emotions you do. Please don't blame yourself for what happened as negative thoughts are no good! I'm sure you did your abolsute best to support your friend in lots of different ways. I'm sure he'd be proud of you. We're all a community here, and we are here to support every single member. I hope that you can cheer up soon and know that if you ever need anything at all, we're all here for you. ❤️

Kind Regards,

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